I woke up last week seeing an image of a hamster running on a wheel.
I knew that was me.
I knew that the Lord was trying to tell me something…some obvious and a few other things took me an extra week to hear.
I am a doer.
Good and bad.
I don’t ask for help as much as I should.
Good and bad.
I forget that I have a creator that has given me every gift I have and never had the intention of opening doors for me and walking away…..I just forget to ask.
To lean into.
To be quiet.
So my week went on and those thoughts were stirring in me but I had so much to do I didn’t really focus.
Anyone else have this problem?
There was so much going on that I told my husband that my chest felt tight like I just needed to move.
I needed to run.
I needed to do something to get out tons of energy and clear my head and release stress.
I don’t like the gym but I love to be outside hiking, running or walking.
I decided I wanted to run the local 5K on Thanksgiving Day.
Because I usually just walk when I get tired of running:-) I knew I would have to be more consistent with my running.
I used to be able to run 3.1 miles easily and I am sure many of you already can…but I needed a little training this time around.
I started using the Couch to 5K app on my iphone.
Super easy and I do whatever the woman tells me to do.
Who knew I liked to be bossed around?
The first week I was running I didn’t even listen to music and just let my mind dump.
I really wanted to hear the Lord.
Funny thing…when you show up….so does HE!
As I was running this is how things went down…..
Me: I really don’t want to do this.
Me: Is it time to stop running yet?
Me: What? I have only been running for 30 seconds?
Me: I feel like these pants are going to fall down!
Me: I hope my neighbors aren’t watching me!
Ok, I probably went on for awhile like this. Maybe I was talking too much and not listening enough.
The more I ran this is how it went and let me paraphrase a bit too…..
Jeanne, do you know how much I love you?
I sure miss you when your days get so busy and we don’t spend time together.
Let me help. I am just waiting here for you to ask.
I delight in you.
ME: Oh my gosh, I am ready to die. Thank goodness it is time to walk again. Water…where’s my water……
Jeanne, that is exactly what I want to be for you.
I want to be refreshing like water.
I want to renew you and fill you back up.
Only you think you have to do things by yourself.
Ask for help.
I love you.
Me: Thank goodness I ended my run today past all the neighbor’s homes or I would want to quit right now. That is the only motivation I’ve got left…trying to steer clear of public humiliation.
Jeanne, do you realize that your KIDS are watching you?
Do you realize that if you forget to rely on me..they won’t either?
It doesn’t matter what you tell them…it is what you do!
They are watching and learning.
Me: Thanks. I needed that. I hear you. I am listening.